2005-07-14 ¤ 10:07 a.m.
Ace King Suited
been ¤ will be

Sometimes I think I must hold my cards to the chest too much. I admit I'm afraid to let people know who I am sometimes. Somewhere, I developed an inherent mistrust of people that I've not really had the success of overcoming. I'm a lot better than I used to be, but I'm sure there's a therapist somewhere to tell me I'm really fucked up. I don't know.

Sometimes I just don't know if I have a hand to play, and sometimes I don't know if it's good enough. Either way, I'm losing the game at this point.

I have to figure out a way to be something I've never been: positive.